I looked into my claim and all seemed to be at a stale mate. Later on tonight I decided to check it again, but this time there is something different. I call was placed to get me approved to go see the surgeon, not sure if I have been approved yet but at least they are looking into it. I am so very nervous about this new part of my life. I fear the unknown, but also know that it all happens for a reason. Well so Grandma likes to remind me! :-) I know deep down that all thing will be okay, but a surgery is never an easy choice. I don't want to be full of sadness, but a ray of hope to others that feel like their lives are not going at the right pace. Things will change as long as you keep your chin held high and a prayer in your soul. This is my motto and I do aim for it every day. I will admit that there are still days when all I want to do is break down into a heaping pile of angry tears. I am so very lucky to have the friends and family that I use to think were cures, without them I would not have made it this far or felt this good about the choices I have been making.