Stomach Bug

Wow. I haven't felt this bad in a very long time. Thank goodness for Jayme and her bringing me all the good stuff to help easy the pain. Oh a very big up note, my mom is going to have a hysterectomy and she should be good to go yay

Today is nerve racking

I am sitting here in Math 085 about to take my weekly quiz, but my brain can't seem to focus. I hope my ACE kickes in fast or I won't be able to keep my eyes open. I'm praying for my mom and hope she stays strong this morning. I love her so so much. Here is to crossed fingers and deep breaths that it is operable and we can fix her.

Crap

So my mom finally called and told me she has cancer in her uterus and breast. She sounds so very hurt since she has here woman yearly and all those good things, but non of them told her she was getting Cancer. How can we have all these test and they not work. She sounds so sad and hurt and I can't be there to help. What am I going to do if something happens to my mom. Wow I just made this selffish and I sure don't mean for it to be. She is so very far away in Montana and I and my siblings are here in Washington. She moved back there to help her parents out and now she is freaking out that they will think less of her or something. They would never think that way about her. What can I do to make this situation better for her other than to try and be as strong as I can for her. It kills me inside to not be there and hold her while she cries this out. UGH. I just needed to vent and be sad I guess. I sure as Hell Miss My MOM!!!

Brain Pain

I don't know if it's the weight of my first week of school, Grandpa not here for his 78th Birthday or the stress of next week, but my brain hurts. It won't shut down and let me rest. I feel like I'm standing still in a sea of running peers, but I can see my feet moving so that is not right. Ugh I just don't understand how to fix it. I need to be healthy happy and smiling, but my smile feels broken. How sad is that.

Partners

So, as the title says, partners. Have you ever been partnered with someone new and they don't understand the project you are working on together? Well today was my second day with a partner and my second new partner lol. We had to come up with 6 topic idea's from 4 different places (newspapers, magazines, books and our own interest). As I was flying thru the assignment, she was stuck on one article in the newspaper and pulling 6 key things from it. I'm not sure what our grade is going to be tomorrow on this one, but the teacher can see the two different works.

Day 2

Well I'm not near as worried or stressed this morning and that feels great! I am; however, super tired. It is so pretty here this early in the morning. The sun is just coming up and hardly any students want to have a 7 AM class. ;-) today I am going to make great. Just watch me

7 AM

Well like it says, not only does 7 am get here early, but getting up to be at my at my first class by 7 lol. I have to say that the next 6 weeks is going to be beyond crazy fast, but I'm hoping I can hold tight and make it thru it all with good grades and have learned lots. Thank You to everyone that has kept me as sane as can be these last weeks. Things will be hard but so worth it later on! Don't worry, I do my home work ASAP

Emotional Afternoon

I honestly need a break from my own mind today. I keep stressing about classes starting back up tomorrow. My dreams have been horrible. I know school will be fine, so why can't I stop all of this stressing. I have my books all packed and my back pack ready to go in the morning.  I just need to shower tonight and try to sleep, but I never seem to let it all go. At least I had a good talk with my sister today and it helped ease my mind a little, but never enough. I hope I have enough gas to make it until my check gets here. UGH I so want a nap but then I really won't get any sleep tonight lol
Second Quarter Student @YVCC

Father's Day

This is one of the first Father's Days that I am not getting to spend it with my dad. I have very mixed emotions about it and I also feel confused. I know he is a busy man with lots of living to do, but it still feels very strange to me. I wish we could be out on the river right now in the boat, or up in the mountains shooting the guns or even better, having a BBQ. Not only did I not got to see my mom for Mother's day I now don't get my dad. I think I am out of the loop and not enjoying it. Well I sure hope that everyone out there is having a great Father's Day and spending with the people you love.

Saturday

Wow. Today have been very very eventful. We got crazy Facebook news this morning and then off to the Farmers Market to sell Relay For Life Tickets. Had a great time with my sister, nephew and friends. Then my cousin and I came over to the bar to watch the Jell-o wrestling lol. Wow fun times

Friday Hopefully Fun Day

Today was hard to get moving. When School starts I will have to be up and out of the house by 6 AM, and yet today I couldn't drag my butt out of bed until about 8 LOL. This is sad to me. I keep think that it all has to do with cleaning out my mom's truck. My brother is suppose to be on his way to take it this weekend and see if he can sell it and make some money for my mom. She is having a really hard time back in Montana with her parents. I know she misses all of her children back here in Washington state. I wish that my body was in better shape so that I could get a job and help my mom out and have some play money for school. It a very frustrating cycle I am on. If I try and do much with my right arm I end up hurting for the next week straight with nasty headaches. UGH, and now that I am typing all the time and writing, my carpal tunnel is kicking up also LOL I laugh because there seems to be nothing to do to fix it. I will tell you a very important thing though, I love school and I will take the pain over not learning any day. ;-)

I miss my Momma

Second Quarter Jitters

As I sit watching a movie I can feel my heart start to quicken. My mind starts to daze off and comes to focus on Monday. Why Monday you might ask? Well Monday starts the first day of my second quarter at YVCC. At my age ( almost 30, gauge, LOL) this is a huge step for me. I have to say that I did pretty darn well with my first quarter. I had two on-line classes and an English class on campus. I was so very nervous with this load of classes, but everything turn out awesome. I hope that going into this second quarter I can do just as well.